Today I am working on my first PodCast.
I have the Introduction completed and I’ve started working on topics and studying them in more detail. This first podcast will focus on the Impostor Syndrome. One of the things I want to accomplish with this site and the podcast is educating myself about who I am. I’ve already learn a little that I intend to share during the podcast.
I’m not going to have a guest yet, not sure who it would be. However, I’ve reached out to a professional to find out what they recommend to help overcome Impostor Syndrome. I’ve decided to share that very personal message here (find it below). If you find anything familiar about yourself or perhaps feel you have any insights you’d like to share, please feel free to comment. Your comments might be referenced in an upcoming podcast.
I’m a person with a low bar in practice, but inside I have a high bar. That said, I allow fear of success, as much as failure, to derail most every idea and concept I have. At 51, I love to write fiction and want to help people with similar issues overcome theirs as I document how I overcome mine. I want to be a novelist and PodCaster. I have written quite a lot, but failed to follow through and finish anything yet. I’ve failed in life far more often than I’ve succeeded, mostly for failing to try. I’m scared of both outcomes. I’m not educated and I’m frightened of being exposed to ridicule by people I’ve not met and those I have. Creativity wasn’t valued in my upbringing and was scorned as a waste of time and effort. It’s lazy. I dropped out of high school and I fear being called for it. I’ve struggled with ADHD my entire life (led to quitting school) but I strive to overcome it’s effects. I usually give up and fall back into bad habits; procrastination, suicidal thoughts (I know I won’t do it), other self-defeating behavior. I have little resilience left. I’m looking for more knowledge about Impostor Syndrome and anything related that can help me be who I want to be. I’m quite convinced that since I try to get my wife to help and partner with me in everything I want to do (She doesn’t want to do it and doesn’t, so I quit before I start) that my problems are related to a fear of being the responsible party. Afraid to trust my own intuition and judgement and of having to cope with what happens when I succeed (I think I’m a decent enough writer to have at least some success at some point). What offerings do you have that might impact me the most? Quickest? Thank you.